Real Life
This post has been sitting in my drafts for well over two months now, waiting to be published. I'm not going to re-read it. I'm sure it is flawed and lacking organization, making little sense. To that, I say, oh well.
I'm making an executive decision and pausing the usually scheduled picture catch-up to post something a little more personal both for journaling purposes as well as a teeny tiny glimpse into my life (as if you were interested).
I'm going to write this post as if I was writing to a friend. That's why I started this blog, as an escape and a "friend." So, here I am again. Behind, and needing a catch up (the way I am with so, so many of my real life friends, too!). I'm not editing; I'm not re-reading; here are my raw, unfiltered thoughts on the thing that scares me most these days: me.
Dear Friend,
3 comments
First off, I still read and love your blog! Sometimes I miss blogging... I just don't have the time or mentally capacity sometimes to organize all my thoughts. (Total crazy mess I tell ya so I overdo my social media stuff). Second- I get this post. So much. Hormone inbalances are so feakin real. As are mental illnesses and Satan for that matter. I have felt many of the same feelings you expressed. It makes motherhood so feakin hard. I have so many feelings about things like this and I suck at expressing them. Good for you for getting it out there. You are definitely not alone and I know those crazy feelings won't last forever! (At least I really really hope!) I have really really low expectations about my life as of late to help my sanity and after changing my birth control (which was a life changer... in so many ways!) I feel slightly less crazy and have been a chubby, happier (although I am working toward "happiest" and healthier), slightly less ocd mom. Hang in there!!! :)
ReplyDeleteFirst off, I still read and love your blog! Sometimes I miss blogging... I just don't have the time or mentally capacity sometimes to organize all my thoughts. (Total crazy mess I tell ya so I overdo my social media stuff). Second- I get this post. So much. Hormone inbalances are so feakin real. As are mental illnesses and Satan for that matter. I have felt many of the same feelings you expressed. It makes motherhood so feakin hard. I have so many feelings about things like this and I suck at expressing them. Good for you for getting it out there. You are definitely not alone and I know those crazy feelings won't last forever! (At least I really really hope!) I have really really low expectations about my life as of late to help my sanity and after changing my birth control (which was a life changer... in so many ways!) I feel slightly less crazy and have been a chubby, happier (although I am working toward "happiest" and healthier), slightly less ocd mom. Hang in there!!! :)
ReplyDeleteLoved this Alyssa. And especially the part about real life taking a back seat, and everything being a show. How true is that in this age of social media and IG obsession (I'm guilty too!). I just think you are as kind and sweet as the day is long, so brave for putting truth out in the world for others to read and learn from, and one of the most wonderfully, freshingly sassiest girls I know. Among other things. Keep up the good work, girl! xoxo
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